January 23, 2016 by Courtney
I have a debilitating illness that causes severe depression and anxiety on a regular basis. It’s so easy to sit around and feel sorry for myself. Instead, I make it a priority to remember all that I’m thankful for regularly.
I have the most amazing husband imaginable. Not only does he love and accept me for who I am (with the illness and all), but he actively seeks to show me this love. He constantly tells me how much he loves me. He shares how attracted he is to me (despite my weight gain, probably because of medication). He prays for me. He cleans. He cooks. He does laundry. He takes care of the kids. He works hard to provide for our family. He lets me sleep in when he can (yes!!). He is just probably the best husband anyone could ask for. And I’m so thankful.
My kids make me so happy every day. I get to homeschool Karis, and this is the best thing that could have happened to she and I. I miss my boys when they’re gone every day, and I love having them home every evening even though it’s somewhat stressful. It’s worth it. Every night, I get to spend time with my kids in their beds. We cuddle, chat, and pray. I know that not everyone gets this time and that’s not lost on me. I wouldn’t have the relationship that I do today with my kids if I had not struggled. I fight for this every single day. And I’m thankful.
I get to live on 1400 acres. I get to hike and run on this land whenever I want to. It is beautiful. Pictures don’t do it justice. Not only do I get to hike, but it’s enough land to take the kids backpacking. I never would have imagined that we would live somewhere like this. And I’m thankful.
We live with an amazing community. One that gives and gives. Ladies’ nights happen every two weeks. When someone has a baby, enough people make them food that they don’t have to worry about making meals for a while. If someone needs something, there is always someone there to provide. There’s enough love to provide for the deepest needs. I’m developing close friendships. And I’m thankful.
I could go on and on about all that I’m thankful for, but I’ll end this for now. I just thought I’d share a little bit of what’s going on in my mind right now.