February 9, 2017 by Courtney
Last night I read this:
“I’m working on my abandonment issues, and I am also working on not saying ‘sorry to bother you.’ I’m not a bother, a nuisance or a burden; I’m a human being who deserves to be understood, loved and valued. I won’t let anxiety tell me anything otherwise, no matter how hard it tries.”
It’s so spot on. In every way. I’m thankful that there are other people who understand what this is like! It makes me feel less alone.
I have decided that it’s time to tackle this “self love” thing. I am learning that I may not be everyone’s “cup of tea,” but I want to be happy with being me.
“What people think of me is none of my business.” This was repeated in rehab often, and I need to repeat this daily.
All that matters is that my Savior loves me unconditionally, and He has grace for me every day. I mean, He made me! He made me on purpose, for a purpose. That purpose is to share my struggles and how I overcome every day so that people have hope!
I decided to write a list of things that I like about myself (learning to love).
- My eyes are pretty.
- My freckles make me look unique.
- My body is pretty great. It shows that I’ve had 3 kids and that I’m no longer yo-yo dieting. My husband loves it just as it is. I’m taking good care of it by eating nutritious foods much of the time, but also nourishing it by eating foods I enjoy. I’m allowing it to settle where it will.
- I’m strong. I have overcome a lot through the power of Jesus. He makes me strong.
- I’m a Christ follower.
- I share my faith most days.
- I’m vulnerable about my mental health and addiction. Maybe this makes me brave and courageous?
- I’m quirky.
- I’m passionate about important stuff.
- I am fighting hard to have a close relationship with my family (after lots of distance because of my illnesses and drinking).
- I help other people going through mental illness and/or addiction.
- I love people when others may not. I love deeply.
What do you like about yourself (learning to love)? You should make a list as well!