Because of all my excitement about the “Brave Writer Lifestyle” among other things homeschooling related, I didn’t realize that I was getting more anxious by the day. I tend to get obsessed about things that I am excited about and give 200%, then it leads to anxiety (the obsessive/compulsive side of my severe anxiety).
I came home Friday from my parents’ and the kids came home from camp on Saturday. We spent that day just resting. Sunday I started to notice something. My breathing was going back to the way it was last year (and in 2013) when I had hyperventilation syndrome. It got worse through the day.
Robert came home from work in the middle of the day and I told him about it and he pointed to the table that was COVERED with curriculum and books and said “this is why!” I was also staring at my homeschool routine on my google doc (it was very congested).
In that moment I decided something needed to change because I can’t live that way again. I want homeschooling to be something that we all enjoy and that works for our family! Not something that makes my kids stressed out and causes me anxiety.
I was so thankful that a good friend of mine could chat that day. I sent her the link to the document and she helped me make necessary changes to my homeschooling routine, and I have simplified it dramatically for the summer. I don’t plan to pick up much else in August.
So I picked the non-negotiables and made my routine with that (and definitely not scheduled times… just an order that we follow)! I thought about just putting school off until the fall but decided to go ahead and start for three reasons: 1) Ethan needs the routine! 2) I need the routine! 3) Karis desperately wants to start (like last week!). It’ll be good to go ahead and start so that we can take breaks as we need to!
This is the new routine:
Nature walk/journal (a few days a week)
Friday Poetry Tea Time
- Mom and kids will read independently for 30 minutes!
- Read sitting on the couch, floor, chair, bean bag, at the table, or on the back porch!
- Copywork, dictation, narration, writing project (Brave Writer Partnership Writing), or free write (one of these per day)
One-on-One Time: The Good and the Beautiful (along with Brave Writer, I am in LOVE with this curriculum!)
- 1-3 lessons per day (mostly one, but some of the lessons are SUPER short!)
Independent activities while I work with each kids one-on-one:
- Handwriting Without Tears (1 page)
- Spelling practice
- Math U See (one video per lesson and one page per day)
Read aloud @bedtime- the book Wonder and a chapter out of the Bible.
This is IT!
In the fall I will add “group time” in the afternoon consisting of science OR history (not both) each day. It will probably take about 30-45 minutes for that.
I also filled the basket in our kitchen/dining area with our essentials and plan to just put things in that basket that we will use each day. Right now it has:
- The Good and Beautiful books
- Handwriting books
- A binder for each kid (with math pages, G&B printouts, spelling lists, and history questions)
- 3 composition notebooks for each kid: writing, spelling, and nature journal
- The book that they chose to read
- And the readers to go with The Good and the Beautiful
In the fall I will add the Story of the World book and science (starting with a unit from G&B).
I have also been watching videos from Julie Bogart from Brave Writer about simplifying and being okay with what we can handle. She has a video titled 55 Things that We Did NOT Do As a Homeschooler. It made me feel okay with what we’re doing!
Now. Am I better today? Not 100%! But it is much better today than it was several weeks in last year, so I’ll take it.
Also, a lady in a group that I’m in told me about a technique that she does when she is struggling with this and it helped me yesterday! I also meditate and listen to spa music to relax.
Anxiety is a beast. There are soooooo many different physical symptoms and even when I feel better mentally, it takes a while for the physical symptoms to go away. It’s maddening.
I see my doctor in two weeks and if it’s still going on, we will address it then. BUT! I’m hoping it’s better by then!
I am in a parenting with anxiety group and many of the mamas in there reminded me that it won’t last forever! It might feel like it in the moment, but it will eventually get better.
Today we are starting school, then I will catch up on housework! After that I might spend some time meditating while the kids have their “electronic time”.
Despite this physical symptom of anxiety, I’m so happy about life and where we are. I’m so thankful that I no longer use alcohol to cope and that I don’t go to bed drunk every night anymore. Sometimes I dream about it and I wake up SO THANKFUL for sobriety! It’s a good reminder about why sobriety is so important!