February 27, 2018 by Courtney
Yesterday ended kind of rough so I wasn’t sure how today was going to go. I had a lot of anxiety last night, and it was hard for me to get to sleep. I woke up so tired, and I’m still very tired. I had an 8:45 meeting, I read to the second graders at 10:00, a 10:30 meeting, I ate brunch, went to a few places just to pass the time, 12:00 AA, and now I’m in the library for a few hours while I wait for the kids to get out of school (Karis has choir after school). I really could curl up on the couch here in the library and take a nap! Probably wouldn’t be a good idea, though.
I constantly realize how great life is. Even on the hard days and anxious nights. Even when I’m really tired.
Just in the past few days, I have so much to be thankful for… in the big things and the little things.
Yesterday Robert and I got to have a lunch date (we ate amazing Chinese food). He had to run some errands so we went to Lowe’s and Home Depot where I bought some succulents and a windowsill herb garden. That’s not big, but it makes me happy. We also picked up a love seat from a thrift store that is in amazing shape and only cost $30!
Last night we had my mentee over for dinner and it was so great to get to know her better. We haven’t been super great at getting together so it was nice.
Today I had an amazing meeting with Levi’s teacher, and I got to talk through some things that have been bothering me. I realized in that moment that a lot of it was just my anxiety telling me lies. She told me a lot of positive things that I haven’t heard from her. She told me all of the things that she does to work with him each day and how she teaches him coping skills (we’re working towards an ADHD diagnosis and maybe meds but we haven’t decided yet).
I read to the second graders in the library to celebrate Dr. Seuss’ birthday week. I read one of my favorite books (The Little White Owl) and it was so fun! I miss reading to a class. Actually it was two classes. And I’ve listened to lots more people read to different classes today. So fun! I just love our school.
Random library selfie.
I went to brunch at my favorite restaurant and had an amazing (large) pancake, fried eggs, and some bacon. Sooooo good.
I went to Family Dollar and got a couple of things and then went to the thrift store (called the Attic). I bought this fun painting for $2! I’m trying to decide where to put it in my house!
All of these things may seem little, but they are big to me. I am trying really hard to enjoy all the things these days.
The next few days I will be having coffee with friends, then this coming weekend Robert is off! I’m always so thankful for family time!
I feel like most posts are similar, but that’s my life. Each day is new and simple and amazing all in one. I’m still having to take things one day at a time because I don’t know how long this will last. I’ll just enjoy the “good” while I have it, however long it lasts!