May 3, 2018 by Courtney
These past few months have been transformational. I have grown in so many ways. The biggest thing that I’ve learned is that what I believe about myself will be true. If I believe that I can’t handle anything, that I am disabled, and that I should just give in to my illness, then I will live these things out. And I was living these things out. Which was why I was stuck in my anxiety and depression for so many years.
Wow, has my life changed. I used to think inspirational messages, quotes, etc were cheesy. I’ve learned that I need to believe them. By believing them I’ve realized how strong I am and that because of all that I’ve been through I can handle more than I thought I could. The hard times have given me the strength to be who I want to be.
I want to encourage others through their struggle… to be a reminder that with Christ’s help we have victory over sin and death. He gives us what we need and courage to fight. Satan will NOT have the last word.
Here is what I believe about myself:
- I am strong
- I have the ability to fight hard
- I am NOT disabled; I don’t have to believe others when they say I am
- I can work and help provide for our family
- Getting out of my comfort zone has changed my life
- I am confident in who God made me to be
- I know that the things that I have struggled with will help others
- I am deserving of God’s peace because I am a child of God and He loves me
- His peace is attainable
- Hope comes from the Lord, and I have hope now
- Through the power of Christ, the meds that He has provided, hard work, and coping skills, I am overcoming the difficult and proving to myself that it is possible
- As I’m becoming more at peace, I recognize very quickly when I’m getting anxious and adjust things/use healthy coping mechanisms to overcome in that moment and it seems to work fairly well
If you’re in a time of struggle and don’t feel that there is a way out, know that there is. Don’t give in to the struggle. Know that you are capable of more than you think you are. You are able to fight and your struggle will make you stronger.
I have wallowed in my filth and struggle for years. Years.
I’ll leave you with this quote that I found on Instagram…