A Little Overwhelmed and a Whole Lot Inspired

I went to my parents on Thursday and came home Monday.  Almost that whole time I was watching the Younique convention online.  I wasn’t able to go after all because of finances but watching it online was so amazing and inspiring.  They made soooooo many announcements including new things that will help my business and tons of new products (hence the overwhelming part).  They also shared about Defend Innocence (I will probably devote an entire post to that and the Younique foundation… amazing organizations that help so many women!).

Since I came home I have deep cleaned and organized the house (mostly the kids’ rooms at this point).  Bathrooms are also clean, dishes done, laundry caught up, sheets/towels/bath mats washed, floors cleaned, etc etc.  I slept a lot yesterday but then worked the rest of the day into the night.  I haven’t been sleeping well and I realized last night that I haven’t been taking magnesium.  So I took it last night and slept so well!  Fell asleep quickly and slept through the night!  That stuff works!

I have kind of lost track of my business again as I’ve gotten distracted.  It’s hard to stop in the middle of deep cleaning and organizing to work my business.  And I know next week will be hard because of staff retreat.  So I just keep assuming that this month just isn’t my month!  I’m going to try!

I found out last night in my team meeting that my sponsor will be starting a group for those who want to promote to pink status.  She is going to give daily tasks in which if you do these things, you will become pink status!  I’m so so excited because often times I just don’t know what to do!

I’m so hoping that after next week I will have a regular routine and I will start doing daily work for my business.  It’s really important to me but I haven’t made that clear lately.

I had a few big takeaways from convention.  One of them is this:  I am worthy of being seen.

Lauren (my sponsor and good friend) spoke at convention and blew everyone away.  She talked about the “mean girl” that tells her she isn’t worthy and that she isn’t loved and she should be quiet.  She reminded us to ignore that mean girl and be who you are.  She challenged us to share a pic of us with the caption “I am worthy of being seen.”  So I did that.

I wrote this with it:

My whole life I have tried to shrink because I felt so unworthy. I was bullied badly as a kid including being punched in the face and blacking out (by a boy). I was hit, knocked down, stepped on, and bullied verbally constantly as well. As I’ve grown up, I have always assumed that they were right and that I deserved it. I must have done something to deserve it. There’s so much to my story but I will say one of the things that has made a huge difference in my life is deciding that I am worthy. I am loved. I am given grace and mercy every single day of my life. I have been through a lot and I am here, stronger, on the other side. And so you may see lots of selfies, live videos, other videos, etc of me sharing my business. I have decided that it’s okay for me to do that! I have a passion for it and if you don’t like seeing me often, then maybe you’re not my person. I am worthy to be seen. Who I am today is so much more joyful, happy, passionate, carefree, giddy, and thankful and a huge part of that is because of this business. I’m so grateful that God led me to Lauren to watch her daily and decide to take a step into this amazing entrepreneurship that has changed my life. You are also worthy to be seen. Don’t shrink. Be who you are and share it with the world.

I had so so much fun with my team at the team dinner on Friday night.  I got to know some women better and got to see my people in person instead of just online!  It was just what I needed.  I wish I had gone to convention, but it is what it is.  I will be going next year for sure!

I was pretty frustrated, angry, and upset when things didn’t work out with the teaching job (mostly confused as well).  But I see now that it was totally a God thing.  He slammed the door shut and made it so clear that I’m not supposed to teach.  Maybe just not now, maybe never.  That’s okay.  I will focus on my Younique business, on self care, and on being the best me I can be.  I am giddy with excitement right now because of all that God is doing in my life.  Who knew that buying a $99 kit would change my life!

Say yes

I’m so so close to routine.  Next week we have a staff retreat and the kids start school so it’ll be a little hectic.  But then after that we’re home free!  The kids will be at school every day.  I will be going to AA every Monday and some Mondays I will be going to counseling.  One day between Tuesday and Thursday will be Bible study day (not sure which day yet).  Tuesday and Thursday I will be driving in the carpool.  I will get back to my daily routine/schedule!  I hope to sleep less and be more active as fall comes around and it starts getting cooler.  More hiking!  More yoga!  More eating balanced meals.  Man.  Summer throws me off.  I feel like I’m in survival mode the whole time!  I hate it.

I feel like this post is a little all over the place and I apologize.  I has taken me multiple days to get it all out.  Haha.  Thanks for sticking with it!

Thankful

What are some things you’re thankful for today?

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