August 30, 2018 by Courtney
Tuesday was pretty rough. The night before I ended up having a spasm in my upper back/shoulder. I didn’t sleep well all night then was on the couch all day. I enjoyed watching Gilmore Girls all day, but I felt grumpy and was just in a bad mood.
I was struggling with my feelings about relationships here at camp, the kids’ school/teachers/admin, my business, the house, money, and on and on. No matter what I did, I couldn’t shake this horrible mood that I was in. Normally focusing on gratitude does it for me, but it wasn’t helping.
I decided that the reason is because of my spasm and I decided to take a shower. Maybe the hot water will loosen the spasm. So I did. And it made a huge difference. I ended up going to a birthday party that night, and while I didn’t do much because I was still hurting some, it was just good to get out and be with my camp family. I also got to talk to a few ladies and that helped a bunch.
That night I had a really hard time getting to sleep. It was probably about 2:00am that I finally fell asleep. I ended up sleeping in, which I thought would throw my day off, but it didn’t.
I got up and got moving. I cleaned, got caught up on laundry (from beginning to end), made beds, swept, did dishes (filled and put them away), worked quite a bit (messaging, video, photo of me, etc), watched some Gilmore Girls, worked on relationships a bit, and had my hubby home in the evening. I got the potatoes in the oven to bake and he did everything else for dinner. It’s so nice to have the meal plan up on the wall in the kitchen so we all know what’s next. It’s also nice having him home in the evenings!
I love our home. It’s exactly the way I want it. I spent some of our income tax refund in March decorating and making it ours and I’m so so glad I did. I just love being here. I have a history of not wanting to be home and to be at Target, or Costco, or ChickFilA, or a restaurant, or Starbucks/coffee shop of any kind… and now I prefer to stay home!
Here are some pics of our amazing little home!
I’m loving life this fall semester so far. Having the kids at school makes a huge difference for me. I used to feel bad about that, but I’ve learned to embrace it and allow it to help me be the best me. When the kids get home, I’m ready to invest in them. I’m able to invest in my hubby as well, which helps our relationship a ton.
I need routine, time for self care, a clean house, the laundry caught up, etc, and for some reason these things don’t happen during the summer! I find myself just floundering during the summer. I guess it just is what it is! I don’t plan to ever homeschool again and my mental health is better for it.
Things are going better at school (from what I can tell), so that’s awesome also! They have backed down on all the homework and they have just a little in the evenings (like spelling). I’m adding in reading for Ethan because even though it’s not required from his teacher, it’s required from us! Especially for Ethan, our struggling reader.
On another note, I finished an amazing book with my new favorite author and person. Bob Goff is an amazing human being. Everyone should read this book. I don’t really even know how to explain it except to say that he tells stories about his life and uses them as parallels for spiritual application.
And I’ll leave you with these quotes…