Yesterday something happened that was pretty stressful and brought me anxiety.
In the past, I would have popped some Xanax and drank a bunch (sometimes at the same time… deadly combo).
I realized last night that this isn’t even a thought, need, or want anymore. I don’t miss how terrible I used to feel.
Instead, I have relied on my self care and coping strategies.
I rolled on some essential oils and lit some candles. I got out my yoga mat and did yoga (in two sessions). I prayed continually. I journaled and read God’s word.
I have been hanging out in my favorite room (my office/yoga room). I have done a lot of cleaning and food prep and cooking. I talked it out with a few friends (and keep sharing with them how I’m feeling). I read some of my class communication module. I took a nap this morning. I have been listening to music non-stop (which I always do, but it’s so helpful). And now I’m writing.
I wish I could share on here what is going on because it always helps me, but it involves others so I don’t want it to be all over the internet. Just know that there are some tough things going on that are affecting us all.
I don’t know when things will be worked out, but in the meantime I will keep focusing on these coping strategies and be thankful that I am not drinking anymore!