Happy Monday with God’s “Reckless Love”

Today is a good day.  I got up at 5:20 which is super early after not going to sleep till 11:30, but I am feeling pretty good despite that.

Ethan has been having tummy issues all weekend and again this morning, so he is home today.  We’re always so torn about him missing school because he already struggles, but he can’t help it.  It is what it is.  He’s currently on the couch watching Wonder (again).  I’m currently getting ready for the day ahead, including doing some work and planning in my Happy Planner (it makes me happy haha).

I plan to make a few videos and graphics today for my launch party on Wednesday evening for Younique (if you’re interested in joining, let me know!).  I will be sharing about myself, my “why,” tutorials for how to use the make up, etc.  It’s going to be fun!  I’m hoping friends will be really active and involved!

Anyway… I was spending some time in worship this morning and gosh, I was just reminded about God’s love for me, then I was reminded how much He loves you as well.  You should watch this video.

As many of you know, my friend and I started a 12 step meeting in our local town (Rocksprings).  Through this, I have realized just how many addicts and alcoholics there are in town.  The sad part is that there is such a divide among the people of Rocksprings.  Those who are addicts (and honestly, most are hispanic and there’s a divide there as well), and those to just want them gone.  And my heart is saying, “No! I don’t want them gone, I want them in recovery!”  God loves them just as much as He loves me and you.  This is really heavy on my heart because so many of them are caught up in the dealing and doing of drugs that they don’t see a way out.  It’s all they’ve known.

God’s love is limitless.  He doesn’t care what you’ve done because Jesus came and died for our sins and rose from the grave.  That’s the beautiful news.  The gospel.  All we have to do is confess with our mouth that Jesus is Lord and that He rose from the grave.  Ask for forgiveness.  Give our lives to Him.

He is good.

Have a great day today remembering that Jesus love you!

Happy Fri-Yay!

This week has felt so long.  The main reason is that I haven’t slept well this week, and I’m still feeling the affects of my really hard Wednesday.  Yesterday I slept alllll morning.  I did get up and get busy though, so that’s nice.

I work really, really hard to stay out of bed.  It’s so easy to just sleep since I’m home alone all the time and I’m usually really tired, but I know that leads to depression so I fight it.  If I do take a nap, I try really hard to just sleep an hour or so.  But yesterday I needed lots of rest.  I think there’s a such thing as an anxiety and/or panic attack “hang over.”  Just feel so worn.

I am determined to make today good!  I got up at about 6:30 and got my coffee.  I tried to do my Bible study but I was just too tired still to comprehend what I was reading.  I’ll try again this afternoon.

I got up and cleaned up the house.  Dishes, the boys’ room, the kids’ bathroom, picked up things around the house, made my bed, etc.  I have one load of laundry going (I try to do one a day and it makes things so much more manageable… and our whites don’t stay super white because I don’t sort).

I plan to do some AA work (re-typing our script), Younique work, Bible study, etc, etc.

So besides cleaning and working, what is making today Fri-Yay?  Why am I happy?  I am growing every day.  Wednesday was real hard but it taught me so much about myself.  It reminded me that I don’t want to just be a blob on the couch.  I want to have purpose and meaning in my life.  I want to glorify God in what I do and say.  I want to help others be sober and women to love who they are and feel good about themselves.  I want to challenge myself.  I want to get out of my comfort zone.  I feel like these things happen through my blog, through leading AA, and through being a presenter through Younique.  I have the ability to do so much with my life.  So, I can’t work full time.  That’s fine.  I don’t need to.  God has provided for our needs.  Sure things are tight, but our needs are always met.  I have kind of come to terms with the fact that working probably isn’t in my future, but I am learning to be happy with staying home and taking care of our home.

Yesterday Levi got me a blanket and pillow to lay down because he said they don’t thank me enough for making the food and doing all the things.  It was in that moment that I realized what I’m doing is enough.  It’s good.  It’s God glorifying.  Our kids feel safe and peaceful in our home.  Robert doesn’t have to do much when he comes home from work (he works really hard all the time to provide for our family).  They always have clean clothes (they do have to fold them and put them away, but that’s beside the point haha).  They have all of their needs met.  It’s those things that matter.

I know I’ve said this, but I’m so excited about my new business.  I have always said I will never do direct sales/network marketing.  So why now?  I have watched women come out of their shell, become confident, get out of their comfort zone, grown in an amazing team of women, make good money, have their makeup paid for, become confident in who they are, have purpose, grow, learn good business practices, and just have fun in this business.  Younique is about empowering women and I’m just all for that.  It’s about true self care.  Loving ourselves.  I could go on and on.  I haven’t even received my presenter kit and other makeup and tools that I’ve ordered (they had some issues with shipping), but I have seen so much good already just being in my team Facebook group and adding new friends from the group.

God is good.  I have had a lot of hard years, and I know hard days, weeks, and possibly months are ahead.  But I am thankful that today is a good day.

Investing in My Self Care


I did a few things for myself the past few days.

I rearranged my office so that I’m facing the window.  Doing this actually freed up some room in the rest of the office.  Somehow things aren’t crammed together.  I just love this space.  It’s so cozy and beautiful.  

After 6 months of “sitting on it,” I decided to join the Younique makeup family.  I have always pretty much been against direct sales, mainly those who sell “health and wellness” products.  It’s just helping the 60 billion dollar diet industry do evil things to women and men (see, pretty passionate about this).  I have been watching an online friend who is a black status presenter through Younique, and I’ve been so impressed with her and the products (and company).  I’ve been talking with her often about maybe joining one day.  Then I saw the Kudos this month and it was a quad palette (4 colors), a lipstick, and a mascara for a pretty good deal (expensive still, but much cheaper than normal).  I started talking with her about it and I realized for just a little more I could get so much more than that in the Presenter kit.  So, I bit the bullet and decided to order the Presenter kit.  Then I also bought an extra quad palette (because I wanted some specific colors), a lipstick, some brushes (concealer and blending brushes), makeup sponge, eye brow pencil, and a Booster Bundle (which has a concealer, foundation, primer, and setting spray).  Pretty much everything that I need to get started.  This wasn’t cheap, but I got 20% back and these things will last a long time.  Also I was using some of the income tax refund.  Now when I buy, it’ll mostly be from product credit and royalties from what I sell.  The main cost is the initial investment.

Come on over and visit my website!

The Presenter kit has these things in it:

  • MOODSTRUCK 3D FIBER LASHES+™ lash enhancer
  • MOODSTRUCK EPIC™ mascara
  • MOODSTRUCK ESTEEM™ lash serum
  • MOODSTRUCK PRECISION™ pencil eyeliner – Perfect
  • MOODSTRUCK® pressed shadow quad palette
  • MOODSTRUCK® pressed shadow refill — Agile
  • MOODSTRUCK® pressed shadow refill — Fervent
  • MOODSTRUCK® pressed shadow refill — Optimistic
  • MOODSTRUCK® pressed shadow refill — Slick
  • MOODSTRUCK SPLURGE cream shadow – Tenacious
  • YOUNIQUE™ angled shadow/sponge brush
  • MOODSTRUCK Minerals Lucrative Lip Gloss – Lovesick
  • Moodstruck Splash Liquid Lipstick – Stubborn
  • Royalty Exfoliating Mask
  • Younique Royalty Mask Samples (1 sachet of each mask, Oil Control, Detoxifying Exfoliating)
  • Touch Mineral Foundation Sample Card
  • White Status Charm
  • ZenPrint Promotional Card
  • March 2018 Catalog
  • Welcome Card
  • Younique Foundation Card
  • Product Card
  • Business/Opportunity Card
  • Fast Start Card
  • Younique-branded, purple faux leather makeup bag

$294 value for $99


I also got the quad palette and lipstick.  

Concealer and blending brush

Booster Bundle (concealer, foundation, primer, and setting spray) and brow liner

I also bought a makeup sponge from Walmart (suggested by my friend).


And I bought a makeup mirror ($11) and iPhone stand ($15) from Amazon to do my videos in my office (this is also another reason I moved my desk… apparently lots of natural light is best).

I haven’t felt this excited about something in a long time.  I feel like I’ll have something productive to do with my time, I’ll learn something new, get free and discounted makeup, and maybe I can make a little bit of $$ to put towards my medical expenses.  I’m also just looking forward to investing in me a bit.  I had planned to go to the Business plan here on WordPress but decided it wouldn’t make any sense.  I decided to do this instead.

Also, this is going to help me learn to be more confident and come out of my comfort zone a lot!  I tend to hide a lot and I’m tired of hiding.  I will be doing lots of Facebook live videos, Instagram stories (I’ve been learning how to use this recently), sharing about products, and sharing how to use the products (once I learn!).  So fun!