Grati-Tuesday, January 3rd

My start to the new year has been amazing!!!  I feel like I have so much to be thankful for.  I’ve already shared some of these pictures, but I’ll share again!

Some important things that I’m learning:

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The ability to buy plenty of food for multiple weeks (besides produce and other items that spoil, we’ll be able to make this stretch for 3-4 weeks).  This is a huge blessing because we have had years in which this was difficult to do.  We are blessed. (some of this we bought to cook for 8 summer staff, but we ended up not having to do that so we have more food for us!)

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New, amazing music thanks to a gift card!

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Game playing time with my best friend.

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A new found confidence.

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Organization that makes my days easier (and a notebook cover with my chips in it!).

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My hubby who loves me for who I am (I don’t think I look great in this pic, but Robert always thinks I look great).  The photo bomber cracks me up.

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Hubby bonding with his kids over our new Wii U (he has never had a video game console before, so this is new).  He has also been playing Nerf gun wars with them :-).

My hubby and kids in general.  I am so incredibly blessed by them.  They are all a person could ask for.  Robert is the most patient, supportive, loving, caring, and honest man a wife could ask for.  He loves with all that’s with-in him.  Karis is creative, caring, loves Jesus, and is loving towards others.  Ethan is passionate, so helpful, and organized.  Levi is a silly guy, loving, caring, and loves Jesus.  I am so excited to see them grow up!  They are amazing people.

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AA Twenty Four Hours a Day, the Big Book, and AA step work.

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A candle that smells like a fresh, new year!

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A new Bible study to dig deep into God’s word.

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  • My mental health is the best it has ever been.  THIS IS HUGE.  My medications make a huge difference, and the work I do on a daily basis also makes a huge difference!
  • Coffee
  • Coke Zero
  • I am beginning to be content with my body the way it is, knowing that my body doesn’t let go of weight due to medications, and I’m ready to just live life and not try to lose weight.
  • The fact that the kids are now in school… which means I have less to be anxious about.  I miss homeschooling a lot, but I know that this is what we all need.
  • Healthy food
  • Unhealthy food that makes me happy

I could probably go on and on, but I’ll stop for now :-).  What are you grateful for on this Grati-Tuesday?

Vulnerability is Courage

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Being vulnerable is hard, especially for someone who is a people pleaser.  After I share something deep and hard, I always wonder what people are going to think.  I make assumptions of what certain individuals are thinking or will say, and it can cause anxiety.  But, I have realized that vulnerability makes me stronger.  Over time, I care less and less about what people think or are going to say because I know God has called me to be vulnerable.  It’s in the moments of vulnerability that He is glorified through me and lives are affected.

I share for many reasons.  The two main reasons are because it helps me, and it helps others.

When I share, it helps me to be me.  I am an open person and always have been.  As time as gone on, I have realized that it’s okay to be me.  I will never change.  It helps me because often I have a lot on my mind and I’m able to get it all out.  It is therapeutic for me.

It also helps me because others know how to pray for me and encourage me.  I will be real here and say I need that.

It helps others because they feel less alone in their struggle.  I am often told that I am brave, courageous, and strong; but I just feel like I’m doing what God has called me to do.  I am often private messaged and told that what I shared spoke directly to someone and they are struggling.  They need to know that other people struggle too.  So often people put on a front that everything is perfect in their lives.  The “Facebook” or “Instagram” mentality.  It makes people feel isolated and alone.  When someone shares the “real” in their life, people feel less alone.  I only hope that people see Jesus in me as I’m being real.  I don’t ever want the focus to be on me but on what He is doing in my life and through me.  He allows all of this for His glory.

I would encourage you to be vulnerable today.  Whether it’s in a blog or on Facebook, or even with a trusted friend.  Be courageous.